Why am I still up? I have school in the am...

Well my day was rather interesting; just sat around, cleaned a bit, listened to music, posted on both my page & the A07 page (there's a link on the right side), got my classes together... pretty much thought about life. Buried my 23 year old cousin monday, who died in a car accident on the 5th of this month. My last memory of him was at his grandfathers funeral december 29th. Came up to me, said "wussup cuzzo" gave me a big hug then gave that mischievous smile, that trouble maker (lol). I mean, all weekend I was trying to be strong, holding my tears back. Was the first one at his viewing (wake), stared at him lying there in that casket for a while then other people came and i stepped back, but every-time i got a chance i walked back up to his casket & stared. You looked different, not like the cuzzo I know. Your face was swollen from the head trauma, man they stitched your head from ear to ear. Your lip was busted, they covered your scars with makeup. You didn't look swool cuh; hit the weights... lol; man I can't believe your gone... I cried like a little baby today. looked at the picture i took of you lying in your caskets... thinking i should erase it because that's not how i should remember you. replaying the funeral service in my head. singing the songs they sang out of no where... pretty emotional day for me today. im going to be ok cuzzo; thanks for looking out for me. i miss and love you. Every-time i look at Neriah, I see you... you'll never be forgotten.

& rip Todd Doxey; Jan 13th marked 6 months since you left us. we miss and love you...

sorry yall; had to.