Wednesday, November 19, 2008

What My Tattoo Means to Me;


I just thought I'd share a bit about one of my three tattoo's; Simply because I just feel the need to stress how important it is for every tattoo to have value. On July 13, 2008 I came home & sat on the couch with my boy, & as I look at my cousin's away message on my LX it read "RIP TODD DOXEY", I wrote her immediately asking if what she posted was true (there have been rumors of death before; so I had to clarify). I then started to notice more away messages stating the same; smh. There was so much confusion, hurt, and anger that ran through me. I didn't know what to think; I couldn't believe it. TODD DOXEY; a well known athlete in my city was gone. His smile, drive & worry free attitude was something that caught everyones attention. He was a friend, a brother, a grandson, a son, a boyfriend, and much more. TODD DOXEY (who played football for the Oregon State Ducks) was on a bonding trip with the team, & as they decided to jump into the Mckenzie river, TODD & a fellow teammate decided to say a quick prayer (requested by TODD) after the prayer, TODD says "I got God on my Side", & they jump into the river... TODD (an excellent swimmer) caught a current & had to be pulled to shore, later to everyones knowledge didn't make it (dry drowned)...



There isn't a day that goes by that I do not think of this tragedy; TODD DOXEY is an inspiration to me (on & off this earth). He is someone you can meet one time & grow to love & respect. The day of his funeral I thought I'd be able to keep my cool, but just like everyone else as they played video's of TODD, showed pictures, & sang songs I crumbled. To see someone so successful thus far go I just couldn't believe it.

[artist; swerve. location; concrete jungle san diego,ca. date; aug 15,2008]


My tattoo reads "GOD IS ON MY SIDE" (literally) . I am not ashamed to admit that I believe in GOD & that he keeps me going. Whether you believe or not is up to you; I do not force those who do not, but I do say this; it feels GREAT to have motivation on a spiritual level. I believe that in any & everything I do "GOD IS ON MY SIDE" & although I may mess up he will always be there, through good or bad. TODD inspired me, & I feel that (although it took a tragedy) it is time to give my all in everything I do, as well as putting more trust in GOD, & to stop messing around. There are so many opportunities given, so why not take them? I thank GOD for TODD DOXEY, he has changed so many lives.




Tribute to T.D. by the Oregon Ducks; Once a Duck Always a Duck




You can GOOGLE him & get more information regarding his tragedy, his stat's, & much more...

12 comments:

PORCHE ` said...

That's very deep & thoughtful.
I love your tattoo and the meaning behind it.

dauche said...

thank you;

JuJu said...

awh. :( gave me chills. your tatt is the shxt tho nd now is even more awesome now that i know the meaning behind it.

oh btw. side note: 07-13 bry's bday!

dauche said...

thank you;
i wont forget that day; so i'll def remember to say happy birthday to bry.

p[L]e[0]a[V]c[E] . said...

i remember this , it was rough .

dauche said...

super rough; & alot more man. I mean nothing has put a dent in my life more than this (other than my grandmothers passing). It was a freak accident. I mean I asked questions like; where was his teammates? how come they couldn't check on him? but then i sit back & realize they did all the could & that it was his time to go. It just hurt so bad. & from time to time, i still zone out & think about t.d. & how i thought i'd get a chance to watch him on tv playing for oregon state & then later in the NFL (he was THAT good)... its just a dream...

p[L]e[0]a[V]c[E] . said...

yeeah , cuz my bestfriend Jeremiah JOhnson plays for ou , and i remember this day so well , he called me .. SAD as fuck , his voice sounded like he had been crying for hours , im like what is it , he told me & i was like DAMN , swimming is my most favorite thing in this world , so it hit me pretty hard , i has met todd this past summer when i went to visit my bestfriend , it so crazy how shit can change , in MOMENTS .

dauche said...

I mean it hit everyone HARD; harder than anything that ive experienced. I mean, everything from that point on, CHANGED... crying for hours was a definite, zoning out like crazy, loosing appetites, i mean all bad. & it wasn't just me, eeeeveryone was feeling the same. his funeral was FULL & the service was a big church {the rock}. so many people showed up. dang here i go getting sad again. know I should be happy he doesn't have to suffer, but dang maaan...smh...

mizsoul said...

Wow! I have a tattoo in that place too!!But these are better than mine. My tatto is uuuuugly...don´t know why i did it...

dauche said...

what did you get?

ill;kinda said...

the tat is fresh !

dauche said...

thank you :)