...tired as fk; & DREAMING out loud with my eyes open.

- in my room; wanting to just crash.
but i also wanted to write.
& now that my mind is blank.
id just like to also show the struggle of writting interesting shxt for people to read;
people dont usually write anything when they are stuck, but here you go. suprise !
im fk'n stuck; had what i was going to write 5 seconds ago; thanks to a relapsed memory
i have no longer the ability to think "wrk" haha all i know is lay, sleep, & get yo axx up to start over.
no minor or major details just straight to the point. lets just say that today could have been better
as far as over production goes; i am still working on ME as a individual. learning plenty.

so im in this hard axx shell; & have been for a while, a layer comes off each & every day;
i just cant wait to LET GO & pursue all that ive ever dreamed of; we all have a problem with action...
we talk a good game; have the best plans; madd potential, but at the end of the day it is all worthless
because there is no action. you can VOW to yourself that you wont be that person...but your playing yourself...
so i say step at a time, day at a time...lets get rid of this bxtchassness & make things happen...

have you ever saw yourself just "KILLIN", i mean... being the BEST at what you do? & having no one & i mean NO ONE
to break you down? DREAMS of becoming successful at what you LOVE and care most about? damn...doesnt that sounds
AWESOME? well fk' i have one thing/ one word to say & that is "WORK", its something you have to do to get to where you want
to go... its like you try to stay encouraged & motivated [for a person like me shxxtt, motivation comes and goes like public transit; although public transit is consistant; im not on that exact path; im working on it lol]; it gets HARD. but as the cliche continues on in 2008 "life is not easy", however you want to quote it.

lets just say that in the past year ive developed this love; love for night life. had some good experiences; experiences that i will take with me as i go along; & when i say night life im hablando about entertainment. im so serious about this; its like when i first picked up a basketball [love at first sight]. i love to entertain and keep people entertained. so id say that i am proud to say that my career is finally here & moving, as well as taking its place in my life. & i mean it got'dammit.

haha; so to sum it all up; im tired as hell & now going to sleep...with my eyes closed this time...& hopefully the dreams will become my reality.